first timers

well, i guess this is officially my first blog.

initially i planned to set this up for when i go to china for easier documentations.

but apparently, looks like i'll be getting a head start.

i just arrived back in utah on wednesday from a little road trip to seattle,

and over these last 2 weeks was reminded of how the Lord does want me in Utah,

at least for the time being, despite my animosity towards it, and it's lack of excitement.

i trust that God has given me this zeal for life for a purpose.

use it for Your glory.

and not merely myself building a name for... myself.

i'm not ok with a mundane life

i want to make a change for the gospel...

wherever i go.

i want to leave an impact on people...

whoever i meet.

is this free spirit merely immaturity that i'll one day grow up, and out of?

this adventure seeking thrill does drive me so.

these dreams and desires to travel,

& see,

& meet,

& taste,

& smell,

& experience... are they from You?

if this motivation for a lively stimulation is compelled by anything in and of myself,

please.

beat contentment into me.

but if this eager intensity and ready anxiousness for change,

for Your sake,

is from and of You... please. let it soar.

i dream big.

and truly believe that i can do nothing in and of myself.

but honestly know that in my Jesus,

i can do literally anything.

and plan on doing just about everything out there there is to do.

at least what my God has for me.

yeah Lord, i think i'm ready for my next step.

for our next step.

whatever step it is you have for me.