she was always a great mom, until one day... she just wasn't.

I've heard the expression, "feels like my heart was ripped out..." or about how it feels like theres a gaping hole where my heart used to be... but for me, i don't feel that at all.
i absolutely feel my heart.
i feel every aching beat of it every second of every day.
its ALL i feel.
if anything, it feels like all the rest of my insides were ripped out, with ONLY my heart left in its place, to echo off the empty walls of my hallow insides.  i feel it.

it wheezes down in my stomach, and pounds in my head.
i feel it.
i feel it all.

because of your sin.
your sin you're absolutely devoured by.
 how did it come to this?
how did you come to this.

Malachi 2:16-17
"For the Lord God of Israel says that He HATES divorce.  For it covers ones garment with violence, says the Lord of hosts.  Therefore take heed to your spirit that you do not deal treacherously. (mom) you have wearied the Lord with your words.  Yet you say, "in what way have i wearied Him?" In that you say everyone who does evil is good in the sight of the Lord, and that He delights in them."

do a miracle in her heart Lord.
its the only way.